May 2011
The sound of silence, rain, ...and reggae.
Went to Youtube, typed in “rain” and now have a continuation of what I just heard outside my window.
Sun Drop and some knock-off Cherry flavored soda on the floor next to me and a partially eaten chocolate orange taunting me, though.
Moments ago I had my mirror up on my desk in front the laptop, I found myself staring into it, wishing to fix everything that’s wrong with me. It...
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April 2011
This is my list.
Ever have that small motivation to really start doing something entirely new to you or out of reach or ..?
Mine:
ballet. *but fierce …like Natalie Portman
running. *without dying from lack of regular lung function.
interior design. *because I want what Vector has. But more. I have an elaborate idea involving some high-tech waterfalls.
writing a novel. *if only my name could reach...
No place.
I haven’t typed up an original blog in a long time. Really inspired right now but there are other things I’d rather be doing and this is no place for a blog with the weight of everything I want it to say…I wish it were, though.
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“You could be empty and I can be right here empty with you. Or you can be hollow...”
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And that’s when you shot through my heart Well, you had me right from the start A critical shot to the heart Now my whole world’s falling apart ‘Cause you shot me straight through the heart Your satisfaction, no guarantee All I know is I feel you in me I look around, this place is a mess I feel the air through the holes in my dress Now it’s so damn cold, here in my soul And...
And every once in a while, everything just works...
A brief summary of the workings of my mind.
Lips chapped, head not quite spinning, emotions numb. That feeling when you just stop caring and live life. Taking a risk. Staring at the ceiling in silence. Being happy without the happiness. Completely chill. The feel of the night air and the heat off my skin. No work is done, just play. Music loud in the morning. Sun making me squint. Thinking is out the window. Feeling good. Nothing like it.
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I need to start adding dates to my more important posts so I’ll look at this years from now and know exactly what I’m talking about and when it happened. Tumblr, this is your only downfall, I’ve yet to see a more concrete date placement here…the archives done by months help, but I want more specific.
the short metaphorical journey of confidence pants
I need a pair of confidence pants; my old pair started ripping and the tear in them isn’t holding up well with the stitching..how am I going to get anything done when I just sit in the corner, looking at life going on without me, thinking how dumb I’ll look if I actually do what I’ve been meaning to do. Oh, confidence, I yearn for thee.
I wish Shakespeare was around now, I could see myself meeting him. I would compare my life to his tragedies, of course, and now that I think about, I completely missed all the Shakespeare references I could have made in my essay today. I did however mention both the Scarlet Letter and Frankenstein…maybe a bit of Harry Potter as well. Oh well, Shakespeare can wait until future essays. I love...
Tattoos and tattoo artists fascinate me.
So there's this boy,
& Tumblr, be patient with me, I’m no ordinary insecure average teenage girl, or maybe I am…
but there is this boy who I have a tiny bit of a crush on. *gasp* I like to think that I pick my crushes well. And this boy is just adorably nerdy. His Physics project was, like mine, about archery but his involved Legend of Zelda. He’s always reading some sci-fi book about five...
I feel good. Really giggly and just…positive. Drawing an XBOX controller for my Drawing class. Thinking about how much fun Florida visit will be and how I will probably tackle the my friends to the ground; it’s going to be a huge social event or I’m going to so overwhelmed I’ll have nothing to say except unintelligible squeals of joy. Writing my outline/draft of my first...
I want to give up...
I am really feeling the pressure of choosing a college/university..and it’s killing me. There are so many beautiful schools with great reviews and wonderful locations. Studying abroad in Italy? YES. Living in Florida? YES. grhbesnvgukybdvjdnfswefjnjk. So stressful.
As much as it kills me
The truth is, right now, I can’t wait to leave. I want to go down to Florida and party with my best friend and forget the world. Today has been a mess of a day and it could be mostly the fact that I haven’t left my house much. I’ll miss my friends but I need to leave this place behind and revisit my past and make my future out of that…I want to live in Florida and go to...
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“I wish I could say ‘I remember when rock was young…’”
I have...a...one of those curvy things you put in...
Watching hair tutorial videos. Just pigged out on a roasted chicken club sandwich, skipping the curly fries after a couple of greasy bites. Christmas lights still on in my room. A really chill feeling like my morning. On pause reading Girl With Dragon Tattoo: I got really bored, the story wasn’t going anywhere and Blomkvist keeps drinking coffee every three or five pages. I feel like...
